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http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/ reality bizarres the standard Sat, 18 Aug 2012 16:46:00 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.2.3 By: GoldenJoe http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1576 GoldenJoe Sun, 19 Apr 2009 05:27:43 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1576 To quote a motivational speaker on the Simpsons: Life is hard, right? Wrong! Life is easy! You suck! You should enjoy the learning process more. If you're counting on learning everything and finding true 100% proof that your reality actually exists, you may want to reconsider your motivations. It's not reasonable to expect that! (though, anything is possible...) Instead have fun with it. Each "death" as you put it is a lucky save. Think of all the interesting things you get to do as a result. By: jack http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1512 jack Tue, 03 Feb 2009 00:55:05 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1512 life and death can't be chosen...why? why are we alive? There might be a reason, or maybe not. :D By: shantoruk http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1509 shantoruk Mon, 02 Feb 2009 07:15:16 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1509 Dear Sean, I have an admission to make. I've been following your blog for a while now with mixed expectations - on the one hand I hoped that you'd have some fantastic results that would inspire me to examine psi further. On the other hand I hoped you wouldn't so I could continue in my laziness :-P Anyway, here are my two cents: cent 1 - "enjoying the ride" sounds too passive. I prefer "playing the game". Not like a kid's game, no - those are just training toys, meant to prepare us for the real game. The game of life. The one where you don't know the rules (although science gives us some ideas), you don't know the objective (although many religions claim to), and the dice keep on rolling whether you're ready to make your move or not. I've felt excited at kids' games, with their neat rules objectives. But the thought of the real game fills me simultaneously with ecstasy and dread. Because you can do <i>anything</i> - make any move, any choice - and the only rule is that you <i>will</i> face the reality your choice generates. And while you can guess, you can never be sure what reality that will be (although experience and learning can help you make more accurate guesses). What we call 'rules', even laws of physics, are just guesses that seem to have held up really well so far. And as for the rules or 'laws' of society, those are so malleable that they can change according to the collective whim of the players. cent 2 - "Aren’t I already myself?" You are yourself this instant. But what were you yesterday? What will you be tomorrow? Even as you play the game, the game plays you - and as you change the rules, the rules change you. You speak of the death of parts of yourself, like your inner atheist, but even apart from such absolute experiences, small parts of us die a little each day, and other parts are born. And what dies and is born depends on the choices we make. Before you decide you want to be "yourself" - do you know what "yourself" will be? What would you want it to be? And don't turn that question around on me, because I don't know :) I can say I want to be a "good player" in the game, but what is good, hmm? Maybe one who makes the game more fun, for themselves and for others, and leaves the game more full of potential than they found it, for the next generation of players? By: Nezz http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1508 Nezz Thu, 29 Jan 2009 08:23:23 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1508 It appears you are still trying to find some one you are satisfied with being (The Skeptic didnt work, the Spiritualist didnt work and the Athiest as well). All your other identities were not what you wanted I would guess. Also, I feel the answers about reality are ones that no on will ever really know about. I believe you are being to hard on your self :p Find aspects of life that you enjoy believing in and go with it. It doesnt have to be right or wrong, as long as it makes you happy. as far as you "becoming" your self and arent you already yourself. I believe a person has to set aside all the beliefs of others in life and find thier own way. Growing up your told what to believe and what is true and not true. So in a sense you have "Become" your mentors. But as you grow you sift through everything you thought you knew and believed in and slowly uncover who You really are and what You really believe in not what You were told to believe. So what I guess im saying is that You are not yourself. You are still trying to find who You are Until You are happy with what You believe in and find what works for You. "Maybe life is easier than I think? “Just do your best”… " Perhaps it is, Sean. By: PotentiaL http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1507 PotentiaL Wed, 28 Jan 2009 21:38:57 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1507 MagicDick: I would interpret Lee's statement as a suggestion to adapt; or as Sean put it, "just enjoy the ride". The sea refuses no river. I'd like to use the metaphor of a simple plankton in the ocean. Should the plankton look for meaning or look for truth? The plankton accomplishes it's meaning by just doing whatever it is that plankton do. It may not know that it and all it's buddies collectively supply half of the world's oxygen, but would it really matter if it knew? By just "enjoying the ride" plankton satisfy their meaning. Searching for its purpose would be a futile exercise when compared to searching for truth. What would truth be for a plankton? Perhaps the fact that a whole different world exists outside of the ocean, a whole universe for that matter. To a plankton, that would be much more enlightening to learn than figuring out making oxygen is great. By: aphorist http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1506 aphorist Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:05:11 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1506 I also have a problem with classifying. It sounds to me like you've made a full circle back to a form of atheism. Just now, you recognize psychic power like you recognize physical and chemical power. They all just exist, without meaning or ethereal structure. By: Sean http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1505 Sean Wed, 28 Jan 2009 13:26:10 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1505 PotentiaL: :-) MagicDick: I don't think reality is cold. I think it's indifferent, which is much better. Beliefs still matter, but they only matter to the person/society... not to reality. Reality will play ball with whatever your beliefs are. If life is depressing for you, then I think you still have some work to do, and some emotions to untangle. Nezz: How do I "become" myself? Aren't I already myself? What is there to "become"? :-) By: Nezz http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1504 Nezz Wed, 28 Jan 2009 09:36:01 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1504 Greetings, Sean. I am still around :D This post compelled me to respond as I have myself died and have been reborn many times in my life. I ask this of you, something I came to realize myself through my "deaths", "Why must you classify your self? Why cant you just take all that you have learned, good and bad, and just become You?" Perhaps all those deaths are just you becoming your true self more and more until you finally become the true person you are inside. Just slowly clearing away the confusion in life, one identity at a time. -Nezz (aka Antron) "Still watching... As always." By: MagicDick http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1503 MagicDick Wed, 28 Jan 2009 05:32:33 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1503 And by the way, PotentiaL, I want to say that is a nice video clip. But my inner cynic is pointing out the obvious (lol people are mostly water...) and ignoring the "deeper meaning" behind those words. How do you interpret it? By: MagicDick http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1502 MagicDick Wed, 28 Jan 2009 05:25:27 +0000 http://alittleweird.com/2009/01/27/where-am-i/#comment-1502 Well, damn. I like to think of myself as being very different from everyone else, but I can really relate to what you've written. 3 Deaths have jostled the way I think in the past 3 years. I can't say that any one part of me has ever really died. To keep this short and non-specific, somebody close to me dying usually brought a new way of thinking into the mix. I've been mostly religious, then mostly agnostic(with random bits of spirituality sprinkled in), then mostly cynical. I say mostly because there's always an inner argument going on, and some days I might temporarily accept an old way of thinking. I've tried to "kill" old ways of thinking off, but I've failed... But now, after the most recent loss, I just feel numb. I can't help but feel that my beliefs (or any person's) don't matter. There isn't some objective universal force that is waiting for me to find the right path so I can be on my jolly way to enlightenment or salvation. There's just suffering and enjoyment, mixed up in struggle and triumph, mixed up in ignorance and knowledge. This... ephemeral cake of life. Every slice has all of the damn flavors. In varying concentrations. But the cake analogy (that I just made up out of hunger haha) doesn't seem to work perfectly and its kinda off topic. But I don't care about topics anymore. Right now (yeah I feel even more egotistical than you..) meaning and purpose matter far less than they ever have in my life. I embrace folly and live everyday looking for laughs and generally getting them. My actions don't have much meaning, they just distract me from my frustration for a while. Humor has kept me from breaking down, but it has also crushed up the last bit of respect I had for "meaning". I used to go through the day being constantly distracted from my truth-seeking thanks to modern obligations. But if truth really is there, why should homework, schoolwork, papers, gum-chewing, shoe-tying, and traffic be separate from a meaningful world? My brain always wants to take the "all or nothing" approach. The result was constant searching and constant defeat. Only now, I've felt like giving up searching. Just live life completely numb, ignoring the tough questions because they seem to mock the loved-ones I remember. I don't feel like reliving the pain and always asking myself why such-and-such had to die, despite being such a good, and previously healthy person. I never get an answer, I just grow more upset with the state of how things have always been. But when it finally affects me, I make a big deal out of it. How selfish. I can either live numb and detached, or live life constantly trying to drug my ego with some kind of "truth". Do I participate in constant rebellion against a cold universe, or do I try to separate myself (in a sense) from that universe and eventually come to mimic the numbness and coldness of it? Do I take on the role of Sisyphus (happy, angry, sad, frustrated, but always pushing that damn rock) or do I just ignore the questions that seem to be past my comprehension and live life only satisfying basic needs until the inevitable? When I put it that way, they seem so similar...Words don't properly convey my frustration.